A lot has happened, but I am well beyond exhausted to blog about anything.

First off, my poor sister’s kitty got hurt. He is an outdoor cat and he gets into fights a lot, but he’s a horrible fighter. So one night my parents were going camping and said that Alicia called them saying there was a hole in the cat’s neck. So I went over and there was a hole and a second bald spot. So I took him into the vet the next day. $70 to discover that it was the fourth abscess he has had and got some antibiotics for him. Mom is going to pay me back in a few weeks so that’s great Kitty is not going outside anymore, and doesn’t seem to mind being inside.

I am a lame-turd and turned in my two weeks at Staples. I did not have much of a choice. With my living conditions changing in the next year or less and my relationship status, I have to save all of the money I can to plan for it all. The gas station pays me $8.50 an hour and Staples only pays me $8 and they will reimburse me for school. And my wage will go up to probably $8.75 when I meet my year. Staples said they did not blame me, they would do the same thing. So crappy weather; I will enjoy you once again I don’t think my GM is too happy, but everyone has been extremely friendly ever since they found out

I pissed some people off real good the other day, I did not even mean to, and it put me in a bad mood the past two days. I want everyone to like me, but it doesn’t work out that way. I have felt like a failure as a friend for pissing people off and never being around, a failure as a daughter because me and my mom don’t get along, and a failure as a girlfriend because I spend all of Rob’s money and can’t ever pay him back. I talked to Dan and he said I was perfectly normal. He said most people don’t get along with their parents and it’s normal to be living out on your own at the age of 21. He said that Rob and I only get to see each other twice a year and I’m a college student, so that’s normal too. And he said I can’t make everyone happy and I should start putting my energy towards the friends who love me. So I had plans to call Amber the next day since she prays for me all the time, but I worked from 9 - 5 in Keizer, so I thought that would fall through. So I was going to call her on my lunch. My phone died like within the hour that it started bitching about a low battery. So I was majorly depressed. Then she happened to be getting a massage in the store across from me that day and came to say hi. So we went shopping and I got some cute shoes and I told her everything and we have become even better friends in the past two days.

So today I went to work. Rob misses me a lot, so I texted him on the way home. I turned in my rent, filled my gas tank. It was only 36 bucks! Yay! Got a stamp for Holland to send Rob a good luck present went with Amber to Dallas and bought some food at Wal-Mart (eew!), went back home to Waremart and bought some more food, went to the library to rent some movies for tonight, and went for a walk up to the little market next to Little Caesar’s. I am now pooped and am gonna go relax and watch my movies. Ta!

Yesterday morning I was driving to work at Staples and was listening to my Garbage CD. I was falling asleep at the wheel and was so thankful I had a five dollar tip in my pocket from the night before. I was planning to get some Starbucks with that and wake me up. I was driving through Salem and on my way to Keizier and my head kept falling on the side of the door, so in an attempt to make it to the Keizer Station, I went to go put my Rhapsody CD in. I reached where I keep all of my CD’s, and every single one was gone. Disappeared. I instantly woke up and searched around my car seats and floor and everywhere, and someone stole all of my CD’s. and I still don’t get why. How do they know if they’ll even like the music? They also stole some candy but for some reason left the Stereo and all of my work stuff.

So I will lock all of my doors from now on.

On the bright side, after I bitched and complained about not getting enough financial aid, my dad can’t take out a loan for my college, and gave up and worked my butt off this summer with two jobs, something passed on the first of July so that I get another $2000 which is more than enough. So that was excellent. Amber said she prayed for me about that and is so glad it worked. So now I am lost on my religious views again

I am off to take a shower, clean my apartment again, clean out my CD cases and get some new CD’s and clean out my car and go to work! And I just took this fun quiz. Haha

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Low
Pride:	Medium

okay maybe not that extreme, but some weird stuff keeps happening.

The other morning, my alarm didn’t go off at all. Thankfully I was awake an hour before, but I kept checking it, it was on, it was set to go off at the time, and the time had passed by 3 minutes, and it never went off. I resat it to go off in a few minutes, thinking it was broken, and it went off fine.

So I have resorted to two alarms.

Just now for some reason my second clock was set to east coast time. And the alarm was set to 12:00 pm. But I haven’t been home all day. It was set for my normal time this morning and went off at 8:00 this morning like when I sat it D: So it’s really weird.

I had both of my keys all day, so I know nobody is playing any sort of trick on me. It’s just super weird. Maybe it’s the heat or something.

Fourteen hours of work tomorrow. It will be fun. Then Robert <33

Goodnight

Sorry for lack of posts. I have been massively busy lately with my two jobs and hanging out with so many people this summer

I just finished working a total of fourteen hours! And I feel surprisingly great. I put on makeup and it did not come off all day. This morning was hectic. Our manager at the gas station has been on vacation, so things have been kind of up in the air. We had to fill out some inventory thing that was apparently supposed to be done on Monday. Also all of the store product came today, the District Manager and her manager, there were guys painting the store, and stupid Chris called in sick, so it was busy all day long. I worked 6 to 2 and then after that got off and worked at Staples from 3 - 9. I am so glad I was on the floor I didn’t have to help anyone today because I am that bad. One customer asked if I knew anything about computers, and when I said a little, he didn’t even want to talk to me. He rudely told me to go get someone who knew a lot about computers. I got pissed off but went on break and felt better. That was about it

Heather is leaving for Israel for the next 8 - 12 months, so tomorrow Amber, Elese, Tara, and me are going to Corvallis where she is currently living to say goodbye. I will miss her a lot and worry honestly. We don’t talk much anymore, but I have known her since I was in kindergarten. It is so awkward to see us all growing up, finishing school, and getting married, and I don’t even feel my age. I still feel sixteen despite the fact that I live on my own, work, and pay my own bills. I guess I just don’t want to grow up.

I will hopefully blog some more tomorrow I have the whole day off, and it’s payday! I was hoping to get a bunny but I looked up how to take care of them beforehand. Apparently they are very social so I would have to get two bunnies, and even though they can live off of pellets, they are healthier eating greens, about as much as their body a day. So I can’t really afford two bunnies or the greens. I will have to keep searching for some kind of pet to play with. I am thinking about a snake now.. we’ll see

The past two weeks have been difficult at first because I have never worked two jobs. Also I have started a new anti-anxiety medicine, and I was all nervous over taking it. But now I think everything is under control and I love my new job.

At first we had to watch these corny videos with dry humor and bad acting. It was hilarious. The past three days I’ve been training on the register and they plan to put me somewhere in business machines. I wandered out onto the floor a few times and tried to shadow some people, but there’s so much stuff we have, I hope I can learn it all!

I now know stuff about wireless routers and video cards though go me!

And I finally got paid. I had to borrow money from Nikky so I’ll have to remember to pay him back. It’s so nice to have money again and no bills due. I bought some speakers for my pc, bought some fruit and cereal, and put the rest away. By the way, fruit is expensive. It came to like $10 for two apples, two bananas, two peaches, and some grapes. No wonder nobody eats much fruit anymore!

Also I have started changing my diet. I was feeling sick for a while and took so many pregnancy tests that all came back negative. I stopped eating out every day and frying my stuff and have switched to eating fruit instead of a bunch of candy and small normal sandwiches instead of the giant meatball ones from subway and I am starting to feel better again. Still a tiny bit sick, but better. I hope I can keep it up or be able to handle fried french fries again.

That’s about all. Buhbye

By sheer luck, talent, and knowing a co-worker already (of course) I managed to mistakingly get a job that I will hopefully enjoy this summer

When Robert was here, our sleeping schedules were 100% incompatible. So while I wiped out at 11 and 12 and woke up at 8 and he slept until noon, I was looking on craigslist one morning for any job that i might be interested in. I wanted another job since I am usually depressingly bored if I don’t have anything to do all day, like school or work, plus make more money to help with gas. A few months ago, they had a typing one that paid like 10 bucks an hour, more if you can type faster than 60 wpm, which I can, but it was in Keizer, so I decided not to call, and then I ended up working in Salem anyway (Keizer I was told is previously known as North-Salem). I wanted to see if there was anything like that, but there wasn’t. But I saw that Staples in Keizer was hiring. And my friend Elese works there, but it’s at the Corvallis store, on the opposite side of the spectrum. I thought it would be worth a try, I might get the job and have a bit of fun working with electronics and office supplies. I love any new sort of thing I can do in a job.

Well I got to filling out the application online and I spelled my manager’s name wrong. I thought I would be able to go back and fix it, but boy was I fooled! So I submitted it and started crying. I decided to forget it, it’s in Keizer anyway, I want one in town so I don’t have to spend gas, and I just made a fool of myself.

Rob got up and we went and did our normal daily things.

Well the day before Robert left I got a call from them asking if I wanted to come in for an interview, so I said sure, thinking why not, it was pretty awesome they called me and I didn’t call them. So they really were considering and really were hiring.

So I went and located this. It’s like all the way out at the Keizer Station, it’s not even like in Keizer where all of the shops are, it’s like annoyingly far away next to the highway, and I went to my interview, and it was like a three part interview, and I totally bombed the first part.

I was doing good and answering everything the way I knew I was supposed to, then they asked me to tell them about a time I made a customer really happy. Well I work at a gas station. I sell people gas for $4 a gallon. I don’t think anyone really comes in REAL excited to purchase gas for 4 times as much as it was a few years ago and I don’t think me telling them to have a good day or washing their window really makes them happy that they payed the extra $3. So I had no idea. And I totally screwed up that part.

Then a man named James interviewed me next. Coincidentally, he was talking to a co-worker about a virus that you have to go into the registry one by one and replace certain parts, restart the computer, hope it doesn’t reinstall, and, yea, basically, a lot of annoying work. And then he asked me why I wanted to work there, and about Elese, and yadiya, and then he asked me where I wanted to work at. I told him I had the most experience at the register, but if I really had a choice, I would love to work in the computers section. I told him about my school and about my software and Linux and everything, and then we started talking about viruses and how we like to manage our computers and such. Then he said that there were a few positions available.

So he promised he would call me back, and he did, and I went and interviewed with their gm which was a total failure. Also, this gm used to be the gm at the Corvallis store where Elese works.

I went and this guy is not excitable. The world could be coming to an end and he would have no expression about it. So I wasn’t sure if I was doing it right or not. He was very straight forward, honest, non-emotional, and he asked me where I shopped, and about the customer service. Then he told me he knew Elese but as Hope (she just changed her name so that was no surprise but I have always called her Elese) and that he wanted to express that he wants us to have excellent customer service, and make it so that when the customer comes back again, it’s not because we messed up, it’s because they liked how well we were able to help them. Then he said it was nice to meet you and I left. And I could not look at anyone because I thought I blew it. He did not say if he would call me, when he would call me, or even have a good day.

So I went home and played Sudoku for a few hours, and after I could not figure out a particular game, I called up Elese to ask about her old gm, the guy who interviewed me, and about Sudoku. She said he is not a people person at all. He will not express weather you are doing well or not. As a matter in fact, you will probably think you are doing a horrible job when you are in fact doing fine. But she said that they would be stupid to not hire me because I had more experience with computers than one of the guys who interviewed me. He even said so himself.

Then I finished my Sudoku.

Then they called back today and offered me a job. It’s a temporary job, I assume 3 months, and they said that if I do well, they will consider keeping me on. I don’t know where I am yet, but I assume that James was interested in having me put in the fixing computers spot. In my experience, I probably wont get hired on as a perm, but of course, I didn’t think I would get hired at all. I know it’s all because of Elese but meh. Tiffany said all I can do is my best.

I guess Rob got home after a long flight and was unpacking and listening to music on his PC when it suddenly went black for no reason. He kept pressing the keyboard and trying to get it to work, and it said something about the cmos not working. He just got back from spending loads of money on yours truly, so he didn’t want to get a new one. So his dad bought him a new PC and I am honestly jealous but it’s so friggin’ awesome I want to pee my pants. And he has a terrabyte of space to store so much porn

I would love for this to be a happy and cheerful post, but I’m ridiculously sad. Rob went on a plane about four hours ago. I am constantly checking the Schiphol website hoping that if it crashes into the sea, it will say so. And hopefully it will be like a bright red weblink that I will be able to read it even though it’s in Dutch

I feel like crud. A bit better than two hours ago, but pure crud. I can’t hang out anywhere in the house but my bedroom because this is the only spot we did not hang out in. I can’t even pick up the movies we rented to get some new ones because he picked them out. I don’t want to get new ones if he’s not there to watch them with me. I ate some leftover chicken for dinner and half of the box of Oreos that he left here. Metal does not seem to be helping so I am listening to some Japanese music and techno and also reading up Dutch words for the hell of it.

On the bright side of anything, I got an interview tomorrow for a second job. It’s way out in Keizer 30 miles away from nowhere! Yay! so if I get it, I can spend more money on gas than I already do! xD Oh well. We’ll see what happens. More hours is wonderful. And even better, I looked up one of my two books that I will have to purchase next term, and found it on Amazon for $30. I am stoked I am sure the other one wont be that much more expensive, so I don’t have to worry about money for school Just a ticket to Holland now

I misss youuuu <3

I am taking my first trip to Beaverton today. I hope. And I hope I don’t get lost because I wont have internet or anything.

We were going to the store last night to get some ramen when I remembered this huge Asian store I had gone to when I was sixteen and seventeen. I hope it’s still there and I hope they have tandori, because that is what we want to make for dinner. I remember bringing like fourty bucks there, which was a lot to me when I was seventeen, and blowing it all on Ramune and candy and shit.

There are four days left until Robert leaves. It didn’t kick in until like eleven last night. I have gotten so used to living with someone and living with him that it is going to be unbelievable when he leaves. I am trying to keep in mind though that he is not going off to fight in a war or anything, he will be safe, which is more than some people can say.

I farted around a ton with the calender script and my css this morning. I have a much-needed new layout too.. I just.. don’t want to code it. I started this website with the intention that my code would be in one file and one file only. It all worked well until I installed wordpress and that one file turned into like twenty different files. I hate having to integrate the code in each of them. Therefore, I am not looking forward to recoding everything n_n Not to mention, I didn’t install SQL on my Apache server. So I have to do all of the ugly coding on here. I will tackle this task after Robert is gone.

Since it is almost noon, I am going to get dressed and eat breakfast and wake Robert up Buhbyes.

One week left until Robert leaves again and two weeks left until I am 21.

Things have been a bit difficult thanks to my pre-monster syndrome. I want to quit my birth control now yesterday. I would have if Robert had not been here. Of course, I wouldn’t have super bad pms if he were not here because I would not have anyone to talk to.

The fourth of July was awesome. The best one I have had since I was probably four. I had to work that day, but it was overtime, and I signed the paper saying that I am getting a raise, so yay. Then I grabbed some Red Bull and we went and watched fireworks with Chris and Matilda. Then we went home and set off fireworks until like midnight or one. Robert bought a $40 thing of fireworks and a lot of them turned out to be screaming ones. I don’t really like the screaming ones, so I told him to set off like three at once. Sounds like an awesome idea yea? It makes no difference in the noise apparently. It sounded the same. Somewhat disappointed. But the rest were fun

We went camping the next day. My little sister is a freak. Last time we went camping, Mom jokingly showed her a dead fish head before dinner. A normal person would go eew get that away from me! She was like, let me see that. And showed everyone how she could move this dead fish head’s mouth. Well this time, we found some very dead and flat snakes. She was screaming “I can make it’s tongue stick out!!”

The rest honestly wasn’t as fun as the first time. Josh and Rob taught me how to skip rocks But I’m not strong enough yet to get them to skip more than three times. My arm is dying, but in the opposite spots that Robert is, so I am using the wrong muscles. Nothing else happened this time. Seriously! We went home early the next day because we were so bored.

Last night we stayed up until sometime in the morning drinking and watching Monty Python’s Holy Grail. We meant to play Starcraft, but unfortunately, we never got around to it. We didn’t get drunk though, so I am kind of bummed. It’s so hard for me to consume alcohol and keep it down. I think I should be somewhat proud because not many college students can say that. Yet it makes me a freak. But yea. I am now in love with Monty Python. Those British are clever. I would love to purchase The Life of Brian.

Not much else has happened since then, clearly. Robert is still asleep and I am going to listen to Blind Guardian and fart around on the internets. Buhbye